Jobs

The movie narrated the life of Steve Jobs from the time he was in university till the time he became the CEO of Apple Computers. It was enlightening in that I did not know the number of obstacles he went through before he became that successful.

I like the movie because they did not try to portray Jobs as god, the "perfect" man despite his success and how his products had greatly impacted the world. His character flaws were visible throughout the movie especially that part on how he changed once he become successful and powerful. One thing that struck me during the movie was how detached he was from his friends after he started gaining recognition in the world, especially from the original group of friends who was involved in the start up of the first computer. As he got more successful, he became busier and there were times where his good friends would want to catch up with him over a meal; not to talk about work, but just to hang out and chill and he did not have the time to do that. He seemed so.. alone.. so lonely even though he was so busy.

Sometimes, I do feel like that with some of my close friends from church and particularly friends from the first cell group I had joined when I started attended FCC. It was less complicated then, the smaller the group, the more time I get to spend with the members, meeting up with them individually during my holidays just to catch up. There were fewer commitments then as cell group was my only ministry. As the years went by, and I started to be more involved in the worship ministry, the sound ministry, the welcome ministry, and as God placed more people in my path to talk to, to minister to, I began to find that I lack that personal time with my old friends. Days at church where I get to see most of them is when I had to be on duty and had to talk to new people and other church members. At that time when I was still attending that cell group, there was also little time to share deeply during cell group because we also had to attend to visitors or newer members from time to time. I did not find anything wrong with that because surely we must ensure that people did not feel left out. I did miss the deep sharing moments though but because I felt comfortable enough with our level of friendship; that nothing will break that bond we had between us, that I was okay. But I do not know if they felt the same. Therefore,  it is always delightful when I join their social gatherings because there is still this closeness I had felt with them before.

I must be quite bothered about this because just about a month ago, I actually thought of the analogy of how superheros do not have close friends, because they are busy saving the world. They have comrades, like how Batman has Robin. But because they are called to do bigger things in life, chilling with friends over drinks and hanging out together are trivial compared to what they are called to do. And I actually feel a little like that. I do not feel like I am doing anything great, but I do think that in most of the things that I felt led to do (and that may include social gatherings with people I do not really know), they are important enough, and more important than just hanging and chilling. Sometimes, it can get a bit lonely, but not enough to bother me. I just hope that in whatever I do, that I am doing the will of God because He knows what's best for me and for others. I just have to commit my entire self to God and let him lead.
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