5 pieces of pineapple tarts is equivalent to 2 bowls of rice which is = 410 calories.
And I have eaten about 5 times that number. Woot. And I have not seriously exercised for the past 3 days. Tragic.
But pineapple tarts must be one of the best goodies ever created. I prefer the butter portion though. And sometimes, like tonight, I will eat just the outside of the tart and throw away the pineapple. :p Wasteful I know, but it helps my waist.
This is a chance to exercise self-control. I am thankful to God for two things that I have made a resolution not to touch from this year and thankful that He has helped me overcome temptation thus far. Perhaps, I should resolve not to eat any more pineapple tarts from tonight? :)
Time to sleep. But not before I talk about my queer agenda for tomorrow.
My queer agenda for tomorrow is to:
1) Get up for work
2) Teach well and be productive
3) Do my brows
4) Spend some time at home
5) Pick friend up from the hospital and send him home
6) Get ready for dinner
7) Countdown to a weekend surprise! Woot! Super excited!
No time to exercise again!!! Will try to do some exercise during my PE lessons tomorrow.
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Thursday, 31 January 2013
Tuesday, 29 January 2013
Mid week!
My homosexual agenda today is:
1) Work hard
2) Lunch with colleagues/ex-colleague to catch up
3) Pick up car after servicing
4) Spend some time at home
5) Go for cell group
Blessed day!
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1) Work hard
2) Lunch with colleagues/ex-colleague to catch up
3) Pick up car after servicing
4) Spend some time at home
5) Go for cell group
Blessed day!
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More exciting now that Monday is over
My homosexual agenda for Tuesday is to
1) Sleep early! (0023 now)
2) Work hard!
3) Focused and purposeful marking after work
4) Spend some time being around my dad
5) Gym with gym buddy
6) Dinner with my longest known friends over pizza!
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1) Sleep early! (0023 now)
2) Work hard!
3) Focused and purposeful marking after work
4) Spend some time being around my dad
5) Gym with gym buddy
6) Dinner with my longest known friends over pizza!
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Ministry
From Feb onwards, I told C to put me down on guitars only if they are in need of any. There are enough guitarists at church and I kinda like to play the role of a filler. One reason is because I am not as experienced and skillful as the rest, and the other is because I know there is always somewhere in need of people to help out at.
In the meantime, one week of my month will be on audio and the other week on welcome. Even though I had been serving up till thrice a week in church for the past few months, I feel a certain kind of lack. I am thankful that Covenant has trained me enough to teach me to ask the first question: How is your walk with God?
My QT this year has mostly been meditating on the verses I had underlined in the 365 day bible aside from the usual devotion online. So I don't think it's because I have been neglecting time with God. Upon reflection, I think the feeling was due to the fact that being in the worship ministry, doing audio and even being on the welcome team, doesn't have that element of investing the resources God has given me into someone else's life. And I guess that was the main focus of my ministry in the first few years at FCC.
So I am praying that God will lead in this area of ministry. As usual, I don't know His plans for me. But I know when it comes. Woot.
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In the meantime, one week of my month will be on audio and the other week on welcome. Even though I had been serving up till thrice a week in church for the past few months, I feel a certain kind of lack. I am thankful that Covenant has trained me enough to teach me to ask the first question: How is your walk with God?
My QT this year has mostly been meditating on the verses I had underlined in the 365 day bible aside from the usual devotion online. So I don't think it's because I have been neglecting time with God. Upon reflection, I think the feeling was due to the fact that being in the worship ministry, doing audio and even being on the welcome team, doesn't have that element of investing the resources God has given me into someone else's life. And I guess that was the main focus of my ministry in the first few years at FCC.
So I am praying that God will lead in this area of ministry. As usual, I don't know His plans for me. But I know when it comes. Woot.
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Monday, 28 January 2013
A brand new week!
My homosexual agenda today is to have fun at work, ensure the kids have fun while learning, and go for classes at night. Not very exciting agenda today, but that's just life. Happy Monday!
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Something divine
In church today, I learnt that the theme of the Amplify Conference this year is Live, Love, Lead. It was uncanny because just about two weeks ago, one of the gals in church who was in charge of the women's retreat was also asking for suggestions for words starting with "L" which has the same meaning as "hope". She had already decided on the first two - love, live. There were some suggestions from the group and I had suggested "lead" because I always have the view that leading is a natural progression from our journey of being a believer. A disciple, not just a believer. "lead" not in the sense of being a leader, but taking the initiative to start doing something God has placed in one's heart. but I guessed the word hope resonated more with the intended theme for the retreat.
It was divine for me because the theme could be exactly the same as that of Amplify Conference, a conference initiated by FCC and has involved inclusive churches in Asia to share together God's agenda for our community. It was held in HK last year and was truly a blessed time of learning and growing. I am so looking forward to Amplify this year! Hk again! Yay!
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It was divine for me because the theme could be exactly the same as that of Amplify Conference, a conference initiated by FCC and has involved inclusive churches in Asia to share together God's agenda for our community. It was held in HK last year and was truly a blessed time of learning and growing. I am so looking forward to Amplify this year! Hk again! Yay!
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Sunday, 27 January 2013
A day to worship!
homosexual agenda for the day:
*Church! *audio duty *dim sum lunch *catch up with old friends *spend time with family *dinner with friends *prepare for work *
How gay!
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*Church! *audio duty *dim sum lunch *catch up with old friends *spend time with family *dinner with friends *prepare for work *
How gay!
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Saturday, 26 January 2013
dancing with Jesus
He must have created us to invite us into the dance, to say: " If you glorify me, if you centre your entire life on me, if you find me beautiful for who I am in myself, then you will step into the dance , which is what you are made for. You are made not just to believe in me or to be spiritual in some general way, not just to pray and get a bit of inspiration when things are tough. You are made to centre everything in your life on me, to think of everything in terms of your relatinoship to me. To serve me unconditionally. That's where you will find your joy. That's what the dance is about." - Tim Keller
This centering on Jesus is something that has helped regulate my emotions, and being able to regulate emotions is good. Being able to regulate emotions means not having extreme mood swings. And avoiding extreme mood swings means not needing to succumb to negative mood disturbances, and not needing to succumb to that means that I am unlikely to be upset enough to say or do things I will regret. In addtion, the sense of stability gives me strength to be able to give of self to others. If I am so consumed from handling my personal problems, how much energy is left to give to others, right? Bouncing back from setbacks is faster, recovering from hurts easier, forgiving others becomes possible. There are fewer wants and desires because I have learnt to distinguish between things of eternal value and those of temporal value. Of course, sometimes I get sidetracked by distractions but centering on Jesus really helps. He's like an anchor that secures me. Woot!
And to be able to write this when I am PMSsing is really by God's grace!!! :)
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This centering on Jesus is something that has helped regulate my emotions, and being able to regulate emotions is good. Being able to regulate emotions means not having extreme mood swings. And avoiding extreme mood swings means not needing to succumb to negative mood disturbances, and not needing to succumb to that means that I am unlikely to be upset enough to say or do things I will regret. In addtion, the sense of stability gives me strength to be able to give of self to others. If I am so consumed from handling my personal problems, how much energy is left to give to others, right? Bouncing back from setbacks is faster, recovering from hurts easier, forgiving others becomes possible. There are fewer wants and desires because I have learnt to distinguish between things of eternal value and those of temporal value. Of course, sometimes I get sidetracked by distractions but centering on Jesus really helps. He's like an anchor that secures me. Woot!
And to be able to write this when I am PMSsing is really by God's grace!!! :)
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What a great day!
My homosexual agenda for today is to swim 20 laps, read The King's Cross by the pool, have lunch, read the papers by the pool, go to Vivo to get errands done, pop by friend's farewell thingy and then pop by a friend's birthday thingy.
How awesome my homosexual agenda is today!
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How awesome my homosexual agenda is today!
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Friday, 25 January 2013
the homosexual agenda
A representative from LoveSingapore, an informal group of churches in Singapore, is against the repeal of 377A, a law that penalises men for having gay sex. Even though I don't see how repealing of the law will affect heterosexuals, they had said that they needed to speak up because of the homosexual agenda actively pushed by gay activists. What exactly is the homosexual agenda? To me, there is no homsexual agenda. The only thing we want is to be happy and be able to spend our lives with the person we love.
I get extremely ministered worshipping to most Hillsong songs. Some people have come to me to tell me that Hillsong Church is the very church that posseses an anti-homosexual agenda. I had told them that regardless of what they believe in, God has anointed them to write powerful lyrics and compose beautiful tunes. Being anti-homosexual doesn't prevent one from being used by God. I didn't know why anti-hillsong people couldn't understand that distinction.
The church I accepted Christ and grew up in was quite actively involved in the Love Singapore movement before. I am not sure about now. In fact, the Senior Pastor was one of those who really believed in the movement. I love my ex-church and some of the leaders and the things they believe in. And I wouldn't hesitate to recommend her to my straight friends. However, as I was reading the letter written by one of the representatives from LoveSingapore and the comments following the letter showing the ignorance and biogty of their followers, I had to pray to God for me not to harbour any bitterness towards my fellow believers in Christ, including that of my ex-church. Then I understood how my anti-hillsong friends felt. They must have felt so passionately about being discriminated against that their anger went beyond God's gifts of Hillsong Church, the gift of worship they bring to others..
In my reflection in the past few days, I somehow wondered if the evil one is waging a war amongst the children of God. Christians are now angry with Christians. What's next? I think the best way to pray is for God's peace and love to dwell in the hearts of his believers.
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I get extremely ministered worshipping to most Hillsong songs. Some people have come to me to tell me that Hillsong Church is the very church that posseses an anti-homosexual agenda. I had told them that regardless of what they believe in, God has anointed them to write powerful lyrics and compose beautiful tunes. Being anti-homosexual doesn't prevent one from being used by God. I didn't know why anti-hillsong people couldn't understand that distinction.
The church I accepted Christ and grew up in was quite actively involved in the Love Singapore movement before. I am not sure about now. In fact, the Senior Pastor was one of those who really believed in the movement. I love my ex-church and some of the leaders and the things they believe in. And I wouldn't hesitate to recommend her to my straight friends. However, as I was reading the letter written by one of the representatives from LoveSingapore and the comments following the letter showing the ignorance and biogty of their followers, I had to pray to God for me not to harbour any bitterness towards my fellow believers in Christ, including that of my ex-church. Then I understood how my anti-hillsong friends felt. They must have felt so passionately about being discriminated against that their anger went beyond God's gifts of Hillsong Church, the gift of worship they bring to others..
In my reflection in the past few days, I somehow wondered if the evil one is waging a war amongst the children of God. Christians are now angry with Christians. What's next? I think the best way to pray is for God's peace and love to dwell in the hearts of his believers.
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my homosexual agenda
My homosexual agenda today is to teach, mark, spend time at home with family, exercise and take a loved one out for dinner.
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Thursday, 24 January 2013
Woot!
I love life. I really do. What do I not like? I do not like PMSsing. I do not like to put on too much weight. I do not like to hear that Dad is unwell again. These are thorns in my flesh, which thankfully, keeps me in step with God.
Dad has a suspected bone infection. The results from the biospy ain't out but I inferred that from what the surgeon had mentioned and reading on the internet about that. Surgery may be needed to remove the metal plate used to reconstruct his jaw bone. Bleah. Committing dad in God's hands.
I love teaching. But work has been exhausting. More work but easier. I don't know how to explain that. But I am not so emotionally stressed this year. Woot.
Laterz.
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Dad has a suspected bone infection. The results from the biospy ain't out but I inferred that from what the surgeon had mentioned and reading on the internet about that. Surgery may be needed to remove the metal plate used to reconstruct his jaw bone. Bleah. Committing dad in God's hands.
I love teaching. But work has been exhausting. More work but easier. I don't know how to explain that. But I am not so emotionally stressed this year. Woot.
Laterz.
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Tuesday, 15 January 2013
my resolution. NOT
I guess blogging regularly is not one of my resolutions this year. I wish I could but I am limited in capacity. This year is beyond busy. Being given (or blessed), back the role of the Health Coordinator puts me in a position I do not relish. I find myself coordinating something every other day for about an hour a day. That time could have been used for my marking which has been keeping me at work till about 5p.m. a few times since work started. 7.a.m. - 5p.m. work hours is not exactly something I am used to. I actually felt guilty leaving at 2.30p.m. today.
I am not complaining and I accept that this perhaps is my lot from God this year. But I did wish more than a few times I could reject the role of the Health Coordinator. The class is a blessing from God, however. I enjoy teaching so much because I can do so much more with them. And planning for my classes makes me excited. I worry though, that I might be too stern or too hard on them. One parent called me and asked if he could meet me to speak about his daughter. Apparently, she broke down yesterday because she was stressed. One boy peed in class today while asking me if he could go to the toilet. And I remembered he asked me an hour before if he could go to the toilet and I said yes. I had not spoke to him since he disappeared from class to go to the restroom and the office to get changed. I am really curious to know what had happened.
Marking is not forgiving because of the increase in work I give. At least it's pleasant marking their work. I do not need to correct their writing every other phrase. All I need to do is to challenge their thinking and refine their writing.
Teachers who teach the lower ability pupils are those teachers everyone has to salute. They really go through so much pain in all aspects of the word. I truly see the difference now that I am teaching the top class.
So. I am a bit overwhelmed but am trying to remind myself that there is a purpose in everything that happens. Gambatte!
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I am not complaining and I accept that this perhaps is my lot from God this year. But I did wish more than a few times I could reject the role of the Health Coordinator. The class is a blessing from God, however. I enjoy teaching so much because I can do so much more with them. And planning for my classes makes me excited. I worry though, that I might be too stern or too hard on them. One parent called me and asked if he could meet me to speak about his daughter. Apparently, she broke down yesterday because she was stressed. One boy peed in class today while asking me if he could go to the toilet. And I remembered he asked me an hour before if he could go to the toilet and I said yes. I had not spoke to him since he disappeared from class to go to the restroom and the office to get changed. I am really curious to know what had happened.
Marking is not forgiving because of the increase in work I give. At least it's pleasant marking their work. I do not need to correct their writing every other phrase. All I need to do is to challenge their thinking and refine their writing.
Teachers who teach the lower ability pupils are those teachers everyone has to salute. They really go through so much pain in all aspects of the word. I truly see the difference now that I am teaching the top class.
So. I am a bit overwhelmed but am trying to remind myself that there is a purpose in everything that happens. Gambatte!
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Wednesday, 2 January 2013
2013
Happy 2013!
This year, I like to be healthier and fitter in all aspects of health- physical, emotional, mental and spiritual.
Practically, this is what I am working towards:
1) Solitude with God
2) meditating on a bible passage a day
3) Exercise at moderate intensity an hour daily
4) Guarding against speaking negatively
5) Fried food only once a week
6) Quality catch up sessions with friends individually
7) Pray as often as I can
8) Spend more time with my family
9) Find a cell group to serve and grow in
10) Give my best in my work to honour God
I think that's all. :)
This year, I like to be healthier and fitter in all aspects of health- physical, emotional, mental and spiritual.
Practically, this is what I am working towards:
1) Solitude with God
2) meditating on a bible passage a day
3) Exercise at moderate intensity an hour daily
4) Guarding against speaking negatively
5) Fried food only once a week
6) Quality catch up sessions with friends individually
7) Pray as often as I can
8) Spend more time with my family
9) Find a cell group to serve and grow in
10) Give my best in my work to honour God
I think that's all. :)
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