I guess some people don't need God because they prefer to rely on themselves and their abilities. I can understand that because it's tough to relinquish control over your life and let someone else take over. It makes one feel vulnerable. But I guess when bad things happen, they don't blame God as much because they never expected God to work in the first place. Or maybe they don't want to be disappointed by God, so they stop themselves from expecting. So many permutations right.
Whatever rocks your boat, I guess.
I guess the problem is when the resentment is deep rooted whenever bad things happen, that instead of outwardly lashing at God, the bitterness takes root in their hearts and they may not even be aware of that. In the end, they may feel so numb at the whole God concept. I think that's where the problem is.
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Tuesday, 6 October 2015
Monday, 5 October 2015
tentative plans
What are some things I like to achieve during my 3 month break? These are some things for now.
1) A time of spiritual refreshing through contemplation/reflection, resetting my life, seeking God and God's direction for the next half of my life
2) Attending the Hillsong Conference
3) Continuing to write and hopefully publish a book
4) Spend time travelling with the parents
5) Spend summer break with Pie and perhaps meet the potential in-laws
6) do Yoga regularly to have a stronger and more flexible body to fix my injuries
I was just sharing with Pie that I have always wanted to start an NGO or foundation of sorts but I have not yet found the target group to do that with. Perhaps there will be some revelation during the sabbatical.
Others (if there's time)
do some part-time work
take up a diploma in Thai foot reflexology
take up a course from bible college either overseas or here
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1) A time of spiritual refreshing through contemplation/reflection, resetting my life, seeking God and God's direction for the next half of my life
2) Attending the Hillsong Conference
3) Continuing to write and hopefully publish a book
4) Spend time travelling with the parents
5) Spend summer break with Pie and perhaps meet the potential in-laws
6) do Yoga regularly to have a stronger and more flexible body to fix my injuries
I was just sharing with Pie that I have always wanted to start an NGO or foundation of sorts but I have not yet found the target group to do that with. Perhaps there will be some revelation during the sabbatical.
Others (if there's time)
do some part-time work
take up a diploma in Thai foot reflexology
take up a course from bible college either overseas or here
.
Thanksgiving
on 26th July, I wrote this about plans in 2016:
I am excited because of the possibility of attending Hillsong 2016, and then travelling to Canada with the pie pie to meet her family and travel around. I was thinking of spending another 3- 4 weeks around Canada to read, write and seek God's plan for the next phase of my life. Perhaps also to compile a book of the insights of a christian lesbian blogger. :p
As usual, plans won't be certain until closer to the date. In the meantime, there are so many opened doors. MOE international school in Hk (my cousin got connections with the P), Shanghai International School (I got to resign for this job but my ex-classmate was looking for PE teachers), submitting my thesis as a journal paper (my supervisor texted me to ask if I wanted to), becoming an Art Consultant in my friend's to be Art Gallery (she will coach me on all those artistic bullshit so she said), my ex- P telling me to look for her if she's not retired (so she can hire me as a flexi-adjunct teacher)... taxi driving, waitressing, petrol attendant... going to bible school... the possibilities are endless :p
Looking for the break to seek God on what's next.
On 5th October, this is my thanksgiving: My P has agreed to a 3-month no-pay leave during the period July-Sept 2016 with the option of extending if I need!!
Of course, nothing is confirmed until the application is approved. But I am pretty stoked about the high possibility that Hillsong 2016 is really going to happen after 12 years of waiting. Super stoked. I think it's a good start to my retreat/sabbatical. It's great that I do not have to resign, and I will not be bonded in any way after my leave period, and after working for another 6 weeks, I get paid during the Nov/Dec holidays again. It's great that I do not have to save as much as projected before.
More about plans to come once things are clearer. Woot!
I am excited because of the possibility of attending Hillsong 2016, and then travelling to Canada with the pie pie to meet her family and travel around. I was thinking of spending another 3- 4 weeks around Canada to read, write and seek God's plan for the next phase of my life. Perhaps also to compile a book of the insights of a christian lesbian blogger. :p
As usual, plans won't be certain until closer to the date. In the meantime, there are so many opened doors. MOE international school in Hk (my cousin got connections with the P), Shanghai International School (I got to resign for this job but my ex-classmate was looking for PE teachers), submitting my thesis as a journal paper (my supervisor texted me to ask if I wanted to), becoming an Art Consultant in my friend's to be Art Gallery (she will coach me on all those artistic bullshit so she said), my ex- P telling me to look for her if she's not retired (so she can hire me as a flexi-adjunct teacher)... taxi driving, waitressing, petrol attendant... going to bible school... the possibilities are endless :p
Looking for the break to seek God on what's next.
On 5th October, this is my thanksgiving: My P has agreed to a 3-month no-pay leave during the period July-Sept 2016 with the option of extending if I need!!
Of course, nothing is confirmed until the application is approved. But I am pretty stoked about the high possibility that Hillsong 2016 is really going to happen after 12 years of waiting. Super stoked. I think it's a good start to my retreat/sabbatical. It's great that I do not have to resign, and I will not be bonded in any way after my leave period, and after working for another 6 weeks, I get paid during the Nov/Dec holidays again. It's great that I do not have to save as much as projected before.
More about plans to come once things are clearer. Woot!
Woohoooooooo
I am back!!!
Long hiatus from writing! A slight lack of inspiration but mostly a lack of inertia in sitting in front of the computer. I was just sharing with the sweetheart yesterday that I tend to write more when I was in the midst of doing my assignments. It was then I had to seat myself down with the laptop in front of me for an extended period of time. And it was mostly when I usually plug myself into christian music that the spirit of God inspired me to write. Will update my updates soonest. Ciao for now!
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Long hiatus from writing! A slight lack of inspiration but mostly a lack of inertia in sitting in front of the computer. I was just sharing with the sweetheart yesterday that I tend to write more when I was in the midst of doing my assignments. It was then I had to seat myself down with the laptop in front of me for an extended period of time. And it was mostly when I usually plug myself into christian music that the spirit of God inspired me to write. Will update my updates soonest. Ciao for now!
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